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January 18th, 2009

01:14 pm: Hi

May 10th, 2007

03:50 pm: argh!!!!
hmm i havent used this thing in like 2 years...and i think amanda is the only one that still reads these things or posts but its venting time.  i dont like where i am rite now and i know that im the only one who can change that but its hard. everytime i try i end up where i started and while some things are better i feel like im stuck in a rut.  expecially with my dating adventures.....endevors...what ever i try new guys but i always end up back with the same guy and i dont know why other than im not really ready for him but i know i want him.  when i look to my distant future i see me with him but if i look like a month away from now i see myself partying and being young. why do i feel like i have to choose now. or why do i feel like i have to take things so seriously with him. with evey other guy i can be like super casual and not even think about next week but the second i get around him its like im being choked with the thought of 'settling down" (my new least favorite term) anyway im so confused

Current Mood: aggravatedaggravated
Current Music: candy man

October 31st, 2005

03:01 pm:
Birthplace:bdpt ct
Current Location:stratford CT
Eye Color:brown
Hair Color:brown
Right Handed or Left Handed:lefty baby!
Your Heritage:czch n cuban
The Shoes You Wore Today:nike sneeks
Your Weakness:not sure
Your Fears:guns...how ironic lol
Your Perfect Pizza:uh white with tomatos n spinich
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:finish the semester and make enough money to move in w debby
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:lol specially wnen im not really loling
Thoughts First Waking Up:can i sleep longer and still be ontime for school/work
Your Best Physical Feature:uh ladies? well their there
Your Bedtime:when i fall asleep
Your Most Missed Memory:nope not going there
Pepsi or Coke:coke
MacDonalds or Burger King:bk
Single or Group Dates:single
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:lipton
Chocolate or Vanilla:vanilla
Cappuccino or Coffee:latte
Do you Smoke:no
Do you Swear:to much rite pat?
Do you Sing:alone...and to sara
Do you Shower Daily:no who does that?
Have you Been in Love:i hope
Do you want to go to College:in it
Do you want to get Married:not rite now
Do you belive in yourself:depends
Do you get Motion Sickness:uh huh
Do you think you are Attractive:no
Are you a Health Freak:about somethings
Do you get along with your Parents:sometimes no
Do you like Thunderstorms:yes
Do you play an Instrument:yes
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:yes
In the past month have you Smoked:yes
In the past month have you been on Drugs:no no no
In the past month have you gone on a Date:yup
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:uh huh
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:not a whole box
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:no
In the past month have you been on Stage:no
In the past month have you been Dumped:just over a month
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:no
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:no
Ever been Drunk:yes
Ever been called a Tease:o yeah
Ever been Beaten up:no
Ever Shoplifted:no
How do you want to Die:sleeping
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:a good person
What country would you most like to Visit:i want to go to china and see a panda
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color:blue
Favourite Hair Color:uh not light
Short or Long Hair:short
Height:taller than me
Weight:not overweight
Best Clothing Style:whatever their comfortable in cuz then they will look good
Number of Drugs I have taken:0
Number of CDs I own:maybe 10 i download
Number of Piercings:4
Number of Tattoos:0
Number of things in my Past I Regret:ru kidding


02:46 pm:
Your Birthdate: November 11

Your birth on the 11th day of the month makes you something of a dreamer and an idealist.
You work well with people because you know how to use persuasion rather than force.
There is a strong spiritual side to your nature, and you may have intuitive qualities inherent in your make up, too.

You are very aware and sensitive, though often temperamental.
Although you have a good mind and you are very analytical, you may not be comfortable in the business world.
You are definitely creative and this influence tends to make you more of a dreamer than a doer.

02:22 pm: halloween weekend
omg i had so much fun this weekend. what i thought was going to be a bad weekend turned out to be alight. i went to debs party sat night had a lot of fun there...tho i dont remember some parts of the night...or maybe im just pretending i dont (lol deb) i was sober enought to drive to pats after the party where i waited in his driveway for 2 hours since sara didnt want to leave her party and was pats ride so he didnt get home untill two hours after he said he was gonna be there. o well i slept in my car listening to enya and enigma they relaxed me then pat showed up wearing my kitty costume and it was the funnyest thing ive ever seen hes such an ugly chick. how could some one so hot look so bad in a dress? ne way on sunday we slept most of the day till we decided to go get a puzzle and it is the hardest puzzle ive ever done in my life i may never finish. its a picture of micky made with thousands well one thousand other disney pics omg it is so hard i did one border pat had to do the other 3 cuz it gave me a head ach. then i fell asleep haha i never fall asleep w him and he always falls asleep with me so i finally made him be up all alone hehehe hes so cute i like him so much o yeah and we made apple crisp together we were going to cook diner together but we got full on buff wings and pizza so we never made our chicken o well theres always next weekend *smiles* im so happy

Current Mood: cheerfulcheerful
Current Music: im sprung

October 28th, 2005

09:36 pm: so went to the cavalcade today not bad cept miller hugged me im a lill grosed out by that but ne way i saw lotts o old friends and mats mom (almost had a heart attack) she gave me a hug i feel better now i was so scared to see her but now that i have i feel better and i saw amanda and she made my month i love her i mean i really need to talk to her cuz im not sure she knows the whole story but she understands at least cuz i know that she will stand up for me and that makes me happy now. So im going t see saw tonight with pat ill let u know how that goes and debs party is tomorrow so ill be having a fun weekend. where is he im sitting in his room and i have no idea where he is i wonder if hes stillat work i mean the movie starts at 10 and he cant drive but his car is missing so i wonder where it went. huh

Current Mood: energeticenergetic

October 24th, 2005

12:24 pm: Drill
Ive had the most frustrating weekend! he looks so good in uniform and i had to stay back. ergh so stressfull. but it was funn sneeking kisses and GLANCING across the range hehehe and then we were alone...huh any way so i gotts nuttin else to say

Current Mood: ditzyditzy
Current Music: the chicken dance
12:15 pm: Sent to me by pat
10 Ways to Know You've Had Good Sex
1. Your mattress has turned into a giant sponge.
this also happens when u leave the window open in the rain patrick!!!!

2. It takes five minutes to unknot your bodies.
no coment

3. An earthquake of 3.4 on the Richter Scale is recorded in your area.
and still ur roomate knocks on the door? hmmmmm

4. The cat's exhausted from just watching you.
and the smokers across the street

5. A trampoline company has to come to adjust your bed springs.
and move ur bed back to where it started (less than 5 feet from the wall)

6 You've both gone down one clothing size.
this is getting expensive

7. You cancel your chiropractic appointment. There's nothing left to adjust.

ewww no bones cracking thats gross

8. You have to breathe into a brown paper bag.
lol pillows work too

9. Boy, are you hungry!

10. You're absolutely satisfied yet uncontrollably horny at the same time.
and then comes the 3am wake up poke

YES!!!! ok i only have to wait till wednesday. 2 1/2 days ok i can do it. lol

Current Mood: giddygiddy
Current Music: the hokie pokie

October 20th, 2005

07:44 pm: my song that i relate to most rite now
Saying "I love you" is not the words I want to hear from you
It's not that I don't want you
Not to say it, but if you only knew
How easy it would be to show me how you feel
More than words is all you have to do to make it real
Then you wouldn't have to say
That you love me
Cause I'd already know

What would you do, if my heart was torn in two?
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say, if I took those words away?
Then you couldn't make things new
Just by saying "I Love You"

la di da la di da
More than words
la di da la di da

Now that I've tried to talk to you and make you understand
All you have to do is close your eyes
And just reach out your hand
And touch me, hold me close, don't ever let me go
More than words is all I ever needed you to show
Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me
Cause I'd already know

What would you do, if my heart was torn in two?
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say, if I took those words away?
Then you couldn't make things new
Just by saying "I Love You"

La di da la di da
More than words
La di da la di da
More than words
La di da la di da
More than words

Current Mood: lovedloved

October 18th, 2005

10:34 pm: today was a good day. all really good days start with waking up early and i did. i got my paper done went to work studied and learned how to make pizza (i made 3 today. a too small round one a larger foot ball one and a good size almost round one) the one that looked like a foot ball was cuz i couldent get it off the spatula in the oven. o yeah and one was sorta burnt but my customers ate it ne way because i made it. i was so high on coffee today it made me get more done. so then i wen to class took a test (and passed) then went home and had a really good convo with pat. i love talking to him. and just doing stuff with him. i get along with him so easily. i had the best weekend with him and we didnt even really do that much we hung out with dan and sandy ate pizza at pizza world mmmm i missed that place then we went home and went to sleep then on sat i went to work and got all the stuff to make pizza. never made pizza but that didnt bother me im so happy im learning to tell people when they upset me cuz i dont want to let it build up so i told him i was upset he apologised and it was over we had a really good night and weekend i wouldnt have missed it for the world. im happy to be happy and im happy to be making someone else happy im happy there arnt any lies and that everything is clean. i need a fresh start.
o yeah and i ended my day talkin to michael jones!!!!! huh not a bad day

Current Mood: happyhappy
Current Music: ill keep u my dirty lill secret
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